Young Among Many
An adventure in itself.
Night Reflections
Tonight I’m hit with all the swelling emotions that have been building up over the past three weeks. Strangely enough, it is a combination of mental pressure, extreme happiness, exhaustion, nostalgia, and a touch of homesick. Being here has so many interesting dynamics. I’m surrounded by 27 other students who have all become good friends. We have not reached the place of becoming comfortable enough with each other to really “lean” on one another. But, at the same time, we cannot lean on our family because they are all so far away. We are left with this feeling of being unstable- no steady support and tumbling out of control.
It has been a great joy being here though. It has truly been perfect. I cannot explain enough how grateful I am to be here, how clearly God-ordained my time here is, and how I’m already terrified to leave this place behind. I am under the best kind of pressure with songwriting. Though I am mentally tired, I finally feel that I am doing what I truly love. This week has been a bit rainy, which has added to the nostalgic reflections the keep sweeping over me. I miss home terribly, mostly my mom and the sun. I’m a little conflicted if you can’t tell, haha. I love it here with my whole heart. I love it there with my whole heart. Maybe I’ll just fly south for the winter.
On a personal note
I will say this. As much as being here, in a new place, is intensely…well…terrifying, it has shed an incredible amount of perspective on my life. I often run across Facebook posts and other reminders of my life back in Florida, and so many of the things that weighed on me then seem so insignificant now. I struggled with my own opinion of myself as well as other’s opinions of me, as most do, and being removed from the situation has given me an overwhelming amount of confidence primarily because I now realize how inconsequential all of it is. I’m not in any way suggesting that moving away from your problems is the answer. Surely, I will struggle with some of the same issues wherever I go until I work out my own outlooks with God. I do, however, feel a much greater sense of purpose here. And for that I am thankful.
Regie Hamm
More updates on CMC Nashville. Just to clarify, I mentioned a few songs written by Regie Hamm (Butterfly Kisses, I Can Only Imagine, etc.), but I was actually referring to the names of the album titles. He wrote various songs on those albums for incredible artists over the years. Find out more about his songwriting at his website.
Lunch break with my friend Elizabeth means some healthy eatin’ and an episode of Friends! This quinoa salad with spinach is from this great food blog, Oh She Glows
4 Months
In retrospect of an entire span of life, 4 months is undoubtedly insignificant. But these four months- these are different. These four months will determine my next major steps in life. The people I meet, the places I go, the things I learn here, all these things will shape my journey.
And I’ll be sharing it here with you!
